My first Goodbye-Attempt

The trip to New York was a disaster! They say ‘every good actor must know when to stop’. Well, I am not a good actress. I will never be able to fake emotion. I was upset. I did not want to be with him, and it showed! We arrived to the hotel. It was gorgeous.…

I dreamed that I was air…

I simply could no sleep. I tried everything movies, reading, exercise, tea, etc. It was getting ridiculous! It started to affect my performance at work, so the idea of getting sleeping pills was alluring but I knew that I would only put myself at higher risk for seizures. Learning about the way in which the…

It was time for professional intervention

“You need to live in the moment” “Have faith and be patient “If it’s mean to happen, it will happen”—said Mark…but I wanted to live in the future. It was true. I had been impatient in our relationship. Fair enough –I thought. I was often frustrated about the circumstances surrounding us and I did not…

Time to let go

It was time to let go… I was listening to the song “Safe and Sound”, revisiting in my mind every moment that Mark and I had. It was hard, but it was time to let go.I said goodbye to his eyes, to his smile, to my laugh, to our passion, to our kisses. I said goodbye…